To all my J1 juniors from CHS, wherever they are now To all my J1 juniors in RJC To all my J1 frens all over Singapore To all Post sec4s waiting for the O's results
ALL THE BEST
Know that u have tried ur best, and don't fret about the results. It is already cast in stone, there's no point worrying about it. Whatever result you've got, if it isnt good, don't be saddened, but work with what you've got and improve on it in your future exams. If its good, don't be haughty, lend a listening ear to those who need one, and a shoulder for those who need to lean on.
If you're troubled, stressed up, or whatever, don't keep it within yourself. Talk to someone who can listen. You'll feel better after that.
About more than 14 hours away from the results. Sleep well tonight.
seriously... the com hates me... yesterday i made a blog on how good days start and end and how good things start and end well... and for some reason, only the title appeared! amazing rite...
haha
Good days start on a happy mood and end on a happy mood. Good school days start happily and end happily. Even better school days start wif the ability to STROLL into school and hear the first bell. *o^ (ok that was quite a disgusting wink but all i wanted to do was wink. Haha.)
oh my eye's better. for the benefit of those who didnt know, somehow my left side of my face hurt and my eye couldnt open properly, and ended up something like o_O (stole this symbol haha). But now its better. can see properly already also. stupid haze but i think its all over. at least for my eye it is...
Hmm...
Jump jump hop hop bounce bounce bounce.
Haha try doing that. it is quite fun. and can alert u and wake you up. yesh.
see a lot of blur zombies walking around school this few days. whats wif everything... cant some people have a life... and some of the non-zombies ah... haiyohz nothing to say mann...
mm. just reached home. Haha i was so happy i could sleep longer last nite, then now i just reached home after vocale and going out to walk arnd J8 which was like so sianz at 10.30 pm at nite... sheez. oh wells. mad people do mad things.
mm.... oh i realised im MMM-ing a lot these days. funny. i like to go Hmm... and Mmmm... oh wells. better than soome people who Hmm's and Mmm's with this look on the face. Haha...
Scandals scandals. Whoa was quite surprised today to hear somethings that i probably shouldnt have. Hmm... (see i hmm-ed again...) Oh wells don;t worry im not a big mouth. Heehee
Engine won Drama Feste for best script and play. =o)
ok enuff here. going to sleep earlier tonite. going out tmr again!
I took a deep breath just now and smelt smoke. I looked out of the window and saw smoke. I heard the wail of the siren of the fire engine. I felt hot. My mouth was dry. My eyes were wet. And i have been coughing since this afternoon. Gosh im that allergic to smoke. 8 years ago, i suffered an asthma attack when the haze was up to an PSI of 261. These days, the Met services keep saying that the PSI isnt high. But fires are happening right here in Singapore. I guess that today's fire is somewhere either between my house and Sembawang, or along Lentor Avenue. There are just so many shrubbery and trees there, a mini forest. On Wednesday a fire occured along Lentor Avenue. about 3 metres of trees just burst into flames. Wad happend today? *cough cough* I need an air purifier. On the other hand, i might as well wear a mask. I miss the waters of the Singapore River. At least its purer there. I can smell the river, and not haze, not smoke.
Speaking of the Singapore River... I havent been on it for 2 years already. The last time i went, it was 2 years ago. I went on one of those ferry rides that they have and it was fun. Went right to the merlion and around VCH, ended up along the clarke quay and back again to Parliament House. I miss the sounds of the river at night, when the lights are a mist and i can hear the waves. I miss walking along the river, looking at the waters and imagining i was free amongst the river. I miss the river. I must go down to the seas again... One day, i will go again. Who will join me this time...
*cough cough* excuse me.
I must realli take care. go sleep at the swimming pool or something. At least that way the air is fresh and i breathe easier. I cant even inhale properly now. been taking only small breaths of air, no panting, no deep breathing, certainly no singing. cant even whistle, or speak properly. U won't want to call me now all i can do is gasp into the phone...
I dun want to have asthma again... but im scared that this may be the onset of another asthma attack. its very scary.
i'd give anything for a breath of fresh air. of clean air. rite now.
ok... enuff said. if my lungs are going to collaspe tonight there's nothing i can do about it. might as well smile now and wait for the haze to go...
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there's such a thin line between envious and jealousy. how true.
Am happy today yay cus ... um also dunno why. I feel very lucky that there are people out there who listen to me, and can hear me talk and chat wif me for hours on end. mm. not many people can have friends like that, and so thank you. =o)
a quote i remember from morning assembly about friendship: A friend is someone who can, when you forget the song in your heart, sing it back to you.
mm how true. often when u are in times of doubt, those who clears your mind, ur fog, are your friends. the closest ones... those who can listen to you and know exactly wad you think, and can tell you what they think, frankly, without witholding anything at all. true friends. hard to find. do i have one?
i'm worried. about how some things turn out. 3 things in fact. 1) i cant name this. involves too many people. but still... im afriad that after some time there will be people who just dun bother anymore, and will i be left alone? 2) i cant name this either. too sensitive and personal. but still... what is the direction im heading in? do i want to do what i had done before, and risk falling head over heels again? 3) i can name this. its school. am i doing too many things that are not related to schoolwork? how will my CT turn out? its going to be a nightmare for me this time...
Eeks.
one thing im glad about is that, im finally putting extra effort into physics. and does it pay off? i dunno. will wait until the next lecture test which is on tuesday to find out. scary though.
must learn not to stay out too late, esp when u're draggin others along. u may not get scolded, but often others will. something like this happened before years ago, and a relationship was strained. i dont want that to happen again.
Haha. someone complained of boredom during physics lec. so did that. and also due to evilness. note the Complete Idiot's instead of Idiot's. Hehheh.
OH Oh finally got my cert for Erhu Exam.
"This is to certify that See Chee Hang (Xue Zhihang) presented by Zhang Yu Ming has been examined and passed Grade 4 Erhu with Distinction." Woohoo! 85 out of 100!!! Yay!!! haha considering i took the exam after 7 months of touching the erhu thats an achievement ok...
Eeks. Just found out that Sea Fever has been set to music before by John Ireland. And its super different from my ttbb arrangement. Oh wells. Haha lucky i didnt hear that first...
Oh now i have 4 mortals and maybe more than2 angels. Haha. and i tried to use a diff handwriting for each letter so haha im going to be damn artistic. hehheh. ok now im super lag have 3 letters to reply to. haha.
tired tired. barely two days and im already diededing. Gosh. and the look that says 'i knew something was going on' on some people's faces didnt help. eeks. gosh why do some people just look at me and then roll their eyes, and give me a look that means something i cant comprehend. gosh leave me alone. im not a face reader so if uve got anything to say then SAY IT. dun bother being tactful or what. if u want my honest opinion just say it. cus im not somebody who goes around interpreting wad people thinks. so if uve got something to say to be then SAY IT. dammit. i hate it when people look as though they want to say something, then start, then say nothing.
okok... got to realli rest. im not going to even touch my tutorials tonight. which has only 52 min left.
i need another break. how come i still have so many things outside of school even after i stop working? unfair. i want to be just a student... and an accompanist. no longer a teacher.
wohoo i've got a new computer... haha XP... but i hate it actually... nvm im the sort of person who hates change...
guess what... two days ago on friday i squeezed another composition out in about 4 hours. i think im seriously mad... this one is called Do Re Mi. i incorparated the doe a deer stuff inside. Haha sounds damn crappy... but quite fun though. its quite an impossible piece anyways u need a big strong choir to sing it. Hmm who knows maybe it'll get performed one day...
gosh at the rate im squeezing out compos rite im going to be rich if i start selling them. Haha. one every big holiday... Gosh... ok enuff crapping about compos.
Hmm school starts again tmr!!! YAY!!! haha why so happy after the super long break, when tomorrow is a long day. Seriously. Why must there be Maths S on Mondays... before i got the music timetable rite i ended at 12 nn, then Maths starts at 4. Now its a BIT better with aural stuck in the middle from 2-3... which means i cant realli go back to CHS liaoz... eeks going to miss choir AGAIN... oh shucks... nvm... maybe i'll just drop maths S sooner or later. but maybe not. haha achivement for me! i completed the whole of the Maths S Tutorial 2!!! oh gosh i can actually do every single question lar... heehee
gosh the keyboard keeps sliding away from me. And its so silent eeks... and the key's so small i keep typing the wrong notes. woops. wrong letters.
my com's like bare. cus my dad said no pirated software on this com. which means im still going to use my old com for things like composing cus my sibelius is not original. Haha. only thing is that i dun hav internet connection on that com anymore. not a great loss actually.
And what good is this new com if im using it... haha it has already 'hanged' on me a few times today, on applications like Microsoft Word. seriously i think im a bad luck charm or a jinx or something to all electronics stuff... i should stick to paper and pen haha...
Mmmm... V day tmr!!! was listening to how others said that they are going to prepare to go somewhere and all that and im like... oh gosh im going to be stuck at home. I dun even feel like going out tmr cus im like going out alone? thats so sad when couples are everywhere... heeks... see how ba... maybe tmr there will be a surprise or something of that sort haha... oh gosh im not yet asleep and dreaming already heehee
hm last year this day this time i was at pizza hut wif the MEPPIES!!! yay rmb L'amour? too bad this year the J1s cant get a concert out on V-day or else it wld be so purposeful... for others to come and watch them sing love songs etc... wow last year i sang two: All i Ask of You and A whole New World... which were TOTALLY disastrous. Haha. see why im no longer in choir? haha actually no im still in vocale. heehee...
Oh wells tmr tmr tmr... i shld stop crapping about it... stop thinking about it. maybe it'll pass as quickly as it comes...
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.
I'd probably have more luck romancing to my piano than any other person. eeks. And I'd probably beat up every single person who snubbed me, so watch out. Eeks. Am i really that bad...
ok that aside...
Eeks. i just squashed an ant. Haha.
CNY is like over for me. I have pigged out too much!!! am going to revert back to healthy food. mm. Haha someone would be happy at that. Hehheh.
Hmm now listening to how my mum's phone keeps beeping wif my sis's messages... then thinking... hheyz my phone has been silent for the whole of today!!! guess the EQ thing is quite true... Eeks how sad...
Oh wells.. intended to put up the result of a few tests up here... but just now blogger crashed on me...and showed me tons of html coding which i refused to look at. Maybe i'll try again now...
You Are A Realistic Romantic
You are more romantic than 70% of the population.
It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...
But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.
You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets
You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!
Hmm... quite contradictory to the EQ thing? MAybe im a super bad liar. Eeks no I don't lie to these tests... And i don't lie to most people. Note: Most. HAha.
You Have A Type A- Personality
A-
You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.
When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds
Wow. I never knew all these things... and i do like sky blue. Hmm... who else likes blue... oh wells i shld wear blue out and see who's the first one to talk to me yar? But i think all others are quite fake... Eeks... Oh wells who really knows?
Hmm... wanted to try the 'what does your name mean' thing... but i've already got one. And when i go and do it again, each time it changes!!! yikes how fake. I'm not going to do it. Anyways it's arrangement screws up my blog. Haha. Pardon my language.
Oh speaking of names...
How does the name Jackson sound.. Been wanting a first name for a long time... hmm am deciding that maybe Jackson sounds nice. Like Jackson See Chee Hang. Isnt that cool. Ok must go and find out about what Jackson means and implies. Not the J is for what and A is for what thing. But realli, search through all dictionaries and name guides etc for the name Jackson.
But yar Jackson does sound nice isnt it?
Hmm or suggest another first name for me?
...
Oh wells. What a long post. I'm quite bored sitting here actually. Doing all these tests one after another...
Haha looking at my sis getting ready for school tomorrow, and I've NO SCHOOL!!! ah going to spend tmr doing tutorials.
Hmm what's the next hol in the calender... March... eeks so far away...
oh wait there's still V-day!!! but V-day this year might not be that fun for me. Going no where. No one to go wif also. Eeks.
Its time to take my mind off other things and celebrate. wads more, theres a long time til i need need to think again. make that a super long weekend cus there's no school on friday! yay.
alright. i'm maybe a bit early (2 hours) but still i alr had my reunion dinner and well think everyone already had theirs yar? hmm dinner was fun, realli brought my mind back to reality and to all the festivities. =o) Though it will take a lot of effort to not go back to all the saddening and hopeful things, i'll try my best. that much i can promise myself.
tmr is the first day of CNY. Yay.
haha wearing red now... my mep shirt. haha. my uncle was seeing: how come got your name on it? so special ah. I also want. then i was saying its the school one, but haha. yay its nice isnt it?
mm.
yay shall not think anymore tonight. or for that matter the next few days. ponder after all the food and hong bao money and all the TV shows have settled. Haha makes thinking more fulfilling on a full stomach.
still suffering from the loss, and now already involved in another?
ok what crap. nvm. if you understand wad i meant, good for you. you're probably the person whom i directed this towards.
hmm am pondering deeply these few days, due to something that was told to me. quite a shock that people thought of it this way. but wells. i cant control what others think.
i find out that recently my temper is quite short... i tend to be impatient and wanting to burst out at others. being tight-scheduled for a couple of days doesnt help. being isolated from others doesnt help. being stuck in some remote corner of singapore away from those whom i want to be with doesnt help. having tight deadlines to meet doesnt help.
being kind doesnt help... being to kind and too caring doesnt help...
oh wells...
i was at East Coast Park today... piano ensem orientation outing. the j1s that came, real good of them. be committed yar? hmm well hav to find some time to get the photos up. real fun to see them there and playing and such. =o)
at ECP... i took the time to look at the sky and at the sea while there was still light. sky was blue, sea was green. my two favourite colours.
my schedule the next few days can make me cry... so many things and so little time... so stressed up lar... i cant wait for cny to come at least i can finally rest...
started frm this week lorz... so many things to do... im going to give up things man... after cny will be better... but for now...
see lar.. im rambling.. incoherent..
thiese few days i hav been going home and konking out immediately... on the desk, on my bed, in the kitchen... i just slept til thy kingdom come lorz...
in school its much better... at least i can take off worries for some time... and mix wif frens and laugh wif them... laughter is the best medicine... and having frens who will just spend time sitting next to you, walking next to you, listening to you as u ramble on... thats so sweet...
im going to stop all my activities outside... except for vocale tho... thats the only thing i realli enjoy doing out of school... this means no cip, no working, no acc, no nothing... im giving up on things i enjoy to do things i enjoy more...
argh for now i just want to cry...
sighs...
so many things to say... so little time... no one who will listen...
Hmm... must be something to do wif me... after my blog doesnt lag when loading anymore, my doodle board disappears... haha oh wells... im so radioactive that all electronics things don't work around me, and www stuff also haha. see.. im such a cave man person... stone age one... even presentations also dun like to use computers... depend on handwritten stuff...
lament lament... complain complain... wads the use.. im just too kind...
eeks i just realised... i cant afford to go around accompanying pple vaguely related to me for free... it doesnt pay well, esp when now my $$ also quite low... seriously... sheez... and im not getting all the rest that i need... and im doing too too too many things... guess wad... im going to pon school one tuesday and let piano ensemble run itself... should be interesting...
maybe i shld just pon school one day... need the rest...
but then every day i have a different reason not to pon...
Monday: got AP tutorial... then got Maths S...
Tues: got Piano Ensemble... got harmony orso...
Wed: my short day. maybe one day i'll finally pon wednesdays...
Thurs: all my tutorials day... got prac compo also
Fri: got music lecture...
I'm Chee Hang. I'm currently serving NS, and I'm also part of the Catholic High School Choir
alumni, the Edward Becheras Vocale.
My favourite colour is blue.
My favourite composer is Beethoven.
My favourite music(s) are powerful.
My favourite food is anything edible and nice.
I like to help people.
I am childish.
I am still a kid, although already 19. Young at heart =o)
