cough

I took a deep breath just now and smelt smoke.
I looked out of the window and saw smoke.
I heard the wail of the siren of the fire engine.
I felt hot.
My mouth was dry.
My eyes were wet.
And i have been coughing since this afternoon.
Gosh im that allergic to smoke.
8 years ago, i suffered an asthma attack when the haze was up to an PSI of 261.
These days, the Met services keep saying that the PSI isnt high. But fires are happening right here in Singapore. I guess that today's fire is somewhere either between my house and Sembawang, or along Lentor Avenue. There are just so many shrubbery and trees there, a mini forest. On Wednesday a fire occured along Lentor Avenue. about 3 metres of trees just burst into flames. Wad happend today? *cough cough*
I need an air purifier. On the other hand, i might as well wear a mask.
I miss the waters of the Singapore River. At least its purer there. I can smell the river, and not haze, not smoke.

Speaking of the Singapore River...
I havent been on it for 2 years already. The last time i went, it was 2 years ago. I went on one of those ferry rides that they have and it was fun. Went right to the merlion and around VCH, ended up along the clarke quay and back again to Parliament House.
I miss the sounds of the river at night, when the lights are a mist and i can hear the waves.
I miss walking along the river, looking at the waters and imagining i was free amongst the river.
I miss the river.
I must go down to the seas again...
One day, i will go again. Who will join me this time...

*cough cough* excuse me.

I must realli take care. go sleep at the swimming pool or something. At least that way the air is fresh and i breathe easier. I cant even inhale properly now. been taking only small breaths of air, no panting, no deep breathing, certainly no singing. cant even whistle, or speak properly. U won't want to call me now all i can do is gasp into the phone...

I dun want to have asthma again... but im scared that this may be the onset of another asthma attack. its very scary.

i'd give anything for a breath of fresh air. of clean air. rite now.

ok... enuff said. if my lungs are going to collaspe tonight there's nothing i can do about it. might as well smile now and wait for the haze to go...

ch

there's such a thin line between envious and jealousy. how true.