a ....... week

can you believe it. i'm going to work for 8 days this week! yar believe it. cos:

Monday: School Show
Tuesday: School Show
Wednesday: Night Show but reporting in the morning because Paul wants me to (half day OT)
Thursday: Report to camp as usual
Friday: Mindef Pride Day show in the morning and another show at night (half day OT)
Saturday AND Sunday: Mindef Pride Day Shows! 2 days OT!

So. 8 days. wonderful.

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When people ask me how's life, how do i answer? Or what am I doing now.. Or how's MDC? How to answer?

- Great! slacking during NS
- Not so great, doing lots of work during NS
- Great! Am in MDC, even though still busy, but not as bad
- Not so great, am in NS, cant pursue what I want.

I found out that i may grow up and become a workaholic. bleahx. as in, yar i like slacking, who doesnt, but then my hands get itchy. So i find things to keep myself occupied. which sooner or later sees me getting busier, then i hate others for slacking. okay hate is such a strong word. nvm.

Yar. I cant stand it when people slack! As in, well, i slack too, and I dun exactly lash out and kill everyone who slacks, but if you want to slack, dun boast! dun come with an attitude!

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Life isnt about You, Your choices, and Your life only. If something was hard, take it as a challenge, and do it well! If all you can say is "its too hard" and want to get away with it, then maybe you shouldnt say anything and just disappear. I understand its hard. Maybe it would be better if you make a joke about it. or make a joke about your attempt to do it. then it wouldnt be so bad. anything but just standing there and complaining with the voice that means "the whole world owes me my life". if its not fair to you, what about others? to be more selfish, what about me? whats all that crap about 'aiyah you have the ability to do it?' when nobody, and i mean nobody, sees me with all the practise that i put in? at least i HAVE a piano AT HOME, and i bring home my scores. i admit, i do whine. i do complain. who doesnt? but at least, after that, dun expect the whole world to solve the problem for you!!! in short, its YOUR problem. dun like it? scram.

and then you complain about me.

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and i realise, a lot of people do not understand what it means to practise.

i mean real practise.

useful ones. productive ones.

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i wish i could be more worried about work then to be angered by people. perhaps, if i had been combat fit, i would have been in hell right now. but. i wouldnt be here ranting about people, i would be here ranting about the activities i do. .. .. .. ..

i'm irritated.

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I've actually deleted what i wanted to say in this part. i dunno why either.

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im having dreams. about work! and its never good. and some i can remember. sheez. am i that stressed about work? why cant i dream about nicer things? =) ?

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ch