Was cooking today lalalalala. Wondering what kind of things i do when i dun study haha. if only i use that time to study.. hmm..
Thats going to be one of my next few signature pieces already. haha. Ah havent been making my 'famous' mixed fruits tofu. ie desert. got longan blah blah. damn nice one. today made the egg /tofu pizza. yumm.
Can change career to be cook yay.
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Chee Hang: Perservere! Don't Give Up! Hold on till the last breath!
easier said than done, but that's how im going to get past the next 41 days. sheez. These 41 days, i shall see them as a challenge. its going to be tough, stressful, and hard, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. im going to need all the help i can get to go through these. its time i proved to myself that im worth it.
this is going to kill me mann... remind me, for as long as i live i will NOT do so many things again.
(like real. haha. how many times have i said it to myself)
but seriously lucky. damn damn lucky that there is NO CLASH! though the 9 and 10 dec will kill me the most, but bahhhh.
i cant wait for this year to be over.
...
hmm i have the feeling i missed out some thing. argh. cant figure out what.
ch
Alex Hitch Hitchens: Never lie, steal, cheat or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.
... which i may never carry out or complete. but anyways. here it is.
Tmr (28/10) - YJC Music Prelims Aural (with the 03 cambridge Malay listening) - TJC FM paper 2 - Chopin Programme Notes - Practise Erhu and Piano
Saturday (29/10) - Practise and go for erhu lesson - Clear up Bach Toccata totally and hopefully memorise it - Chopin programme notes (tidy up) and Beethoven Programme notes
Sunday (30/10) - Piano Lesson! - Must still practise piano.
Monday 31/10 - Physics: TJC paper. finish up. - Physics: Re-revise, start from beggining. Must really do my thermody. - ALl programme notes - Go down to Paragon.
Tuesday 1/11 - Holiday. haha. can afford to take a break.
Wednesday 2/11 - Physics again!
Thursday 3/11 - Holiday again hahaha.
Friday 4/11 - Do another Physics paper.
Saturday Sunday 5-6/11 - ERhu and piano lessons. practise practise practise.
Monday: 7/11 - Do one Maths Paper 1
Tuesday 8/11 - Morning can take abreak. afternoon 9233/01..
Wednesday 9/11 - Revise stats.
Thursday 10/11 - Morning 9233/02 - Afternoon read thru GP stuff. if i really want to
if u really think about it, everything is a double-edged sword. hmm. the ability to cut both ways. good and bad. positive and negative. well. hmm.
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beginning to wonder if i should spend more time in my own home for a change. instead of treating it as a hotel, or not even coming back to it at all for more than a day.
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do all these studying sessions really work? are they effective for me?
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do i worry too much? what's the problem?
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interestingly, this year's A levels, to me, should be more manageable than the O's two years back. yet, i seem more ill-prepared, and i'm already thinking of totally neglecting one subject just because other things, to me, are more important than the A's.
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Is it the O's that I still cling to? No, not the exam itself. That period of time.
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If i wished for time to stop, it wouldnt be now.
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If there's a place i want to be now, it wouldnt be here.
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If there's a thing i want to do now, it wouldnt be this.
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If there're people i want to meet, they wouldnt be here right now.
Thats the one word to describe how my prac(s) went.
some things, hasnt happened before, probably will never happen again. as i was told, it even happens to the most seasoned, so well. i recovered. at least i hope i did. the marks may prove or disprove me.
which only proves i'm still human.
thank you, anyway.
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the kind of things i get in my mailbox nowadays, both the email and the house mail. gosh.
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quote: 'b) a standard operatic aria* (in original key) or one movement from a standard instrumental concerto c) three art songs* - one each in French, GErman and English
...
*Applicants should be prepared to sing the vocal line while palying, translate the text and establish the dramatic context of the aria'
gosh. how hard. and i didnt even apply for voice haha. guess where. probably not going.
oh by the way. my name is mr chee hang see. so the letter went 'Dear Chee,' haha
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the other thing i got in my letter box. letter from Trinity college
gosh
Diploma: Fellowship in solo piano Centre: 0841 Singapore Candidate's Name: See Chee Hang Examination Session: Nov/Dec 2005
You are requested to attend the following examinations:
blah blah
Date: 25 Nov 2005!!!!
gosh 3 days after my A's end!!! exactly one month from today!!! how will i be ready!!!
and its at 17:05 hrs. last candidate i suppose, will take until 6pm.
this is an interesting convo i had with this chs junior standing at bishan mrt this afternoon, waiting for people to come to board the bus for chs open house.
me: you're in sec... him: sec 2 me: oh that means.. blue badge? him: yar. me: haha same as me him: oh! then you are sec what? me: i'm sec 2 too! (with a look on my face that says that i'm not sec 2)
by the way, i was wearing RJ school u when i said this! poor guy. he went like 'oh sorry sorry'... i didnt catch his name though, his badge was facing away from me.
but he was quite bored, standing there alone, waiting for his lunch break.
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i cant believe how time flies. no i'm not going to go into all that again so dun worry.
but yar, time really flies.
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eeks. my neck is stiff. shoulders are stiff. playing is stiff. 3 days to A lvl prac.
and i have to get used to my erhu in 3 days? gosh. as in. another sound. erks.
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things undone: FM 2 mock GP mock Physics paperS the extra maths papers i have lying around at home the maths s paper i have at home programme notes.
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Post note. was listening to my chopin nocturne i recorded on friday. gosh. i want to cry. im not trying to be ego or what but i think my chopin is finally peaking. at the right time. and it will continue to grow, i hope. unfortunately im not playing that chopin for npvc. how stupid of me, choosing a scherzo instead.
fine.
i played chopin on wednesday evening in school, to an almost empty LT. but i felt satisfied then more than when i was playing to an audience. this chopin, so tragic, so passionate, its a private affair. almost like a secret love life between me and chopin, but he's dead by the way. how can some people listen to things like this and go, ' huh emotional MEH?' i mean. gosh. its his most tragic output. and as of now, i have a story for it, a love story, a sad one, about losing a loved one. lau says im shallow, and he says its for the love for a grandfather. well, i cant say he's wrong, nor can i say i'm correct either. though Ms Yang did laugh at my story and said, how modern. ha.
my teacher heard my story too, and thought it reflected in the music. i rmb she asked me if that story related to myself. fortunately, no, not presently.
another friend listened to it and commented, how come chopin is so tragic. that was way back in june. but this friend appreciates this chopin more than some people.
and on friday, this guy from CE came up, told me he was one of the people who sneaked into the lt when i was practising on wednesday, and said my chopin was nice. didnt asked which one it was, cos i practised the scherzo too. but i think the scherzo, though impressive and virtuosic, is nowhere near the nocturne. oh have i said it yet. Nocturne Op 48 no. 1 c minor. the saddest one.
and also the hardest one, given the doppio movimento part, just look at it. triplet chords in both hands, and still have to play a melody and bass line over these repeated chords, and be heard. haha.
by the way, i realised piu meant different things in italian and french, and it almost cost me my interpretation. cos there's a section poco piu lento. i took it as a little LESS slowly, but should be a little MORE slowly. haha.
on thursday, i was almost in tears after i played chopin. yes, chopin has that effect. if this happens during A's, sighs. and with khachaturian after that i will just break down after i walk out.
I just realised i have used this title before. general, not too specific, can write anything. mm.
And so...
Open house just ended. What a day. Music marathon. tiring. super tiring. remind me never to do something like that again.
yet, i realise that it is only when you are a student that u have these kinds of opportunities, to play, to enjoy making music. to do it with people you know, people you can joke with, people who are close to you, people whom you like. as opposed to strangers, who pay you just that THEY can be in the spotlight on stage, and you are yet another accmpanist who earns like $40 an hour. by the way i'll be upping my charges soon. an LTCL accompaniment dist cert is not something that you can ignore. haha.
so. as i take a rest later, i guess, i will just hoep that today comes again. even though, yes, exhausting, tiring, stressful. but. i will want to do it again. and again. (well without injuring my knee again)
so just a month and one more day to the end of A's, and another 3/4 or so of a month til the end of NPVC, and exactly a month (22 dec) to my next time on stage. and right after that, a month before confinement in tekong. how time flies.
if i had a wish, it would be that time will stop. in JC life or Sec life. id prefer the environment of chs, but i'll hope for the company of meppies. yay.
sighs. is it really the end of yet another chapter in my life? or is the end just another beginning, no matter how cliche that is?
sighs. so nostalgic.
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some people never know when to back off. its amazing how little stress and anger one can withstand before exploding. and yes i'm talking about myself. i knwo myself, and that i am violent, and i explode, quite easily. esp in stressful times. and when people can just call you up and waste all your time. sometimes if i just ignore the phone, i might be better off.
This following announcement is made because i feel maybe it would be nice to make it.
Raffles Junior College Open House 05: Raffles Ahoy. 21 October 2005, this friday. 1pm onwards for non-rafflesians (morning is some matriculation day for Raffles Programme.)
Yes so to juniors who intend to go to RJ or just want to go somewhere to look, why not.
and for people already in RJ and want to take a break from studying from A's, haha hop down to LT2 from 8.30 to 10.30am and 2.30pm to 6.30pm. There's Music Marathon by the JC2 MEP students, which includes ME!!! (and according to Lau, this is turning into cheehang marathon haha im going on stage 6 times that's one third of the programme!!!)
so thats about it.
to sec 4s who may chance upon this blog: if you're choosing JCs, choose wisely. dun choose for branded names, or go because your friends go. not that i'm putting any JCs down, but choose wisely. trust me, i know.
now i look around almost every other guy i know gets enlisted on 5/6/7 Jan. thats the first week of january! and im like 3rd week because of the C1L9 thing. haha.
and i was complaining this afternoon that i'll be lonely after u guys go in and blah blah. then shaun was saying that i get all the girls to myself. hmmm. not a bad idea. hahahaha.
gosh. Grosse Fugue!!! fellow meppies will know what i mean. hah. aiyar shld have analysed that the last time instead of 131.
im going to die for physics. erks. thats my worst subject right now. well, GP, but er. haha.
today, sadly, was farewell assembly, the 2nd last assembly the J2s of 05 would have together. last is the results day. heh.
i find the time i spent in the classroom with my teacher more enjoyable than the one in the hall. it was true, how after everyone and everything is starting to get used to each other and things run smoothly, its time to say goodbye. though it was kind of stupid since we all come back for revision lectures and blah even after farewell.
ah.
am tired now.
will type more someday. have just too much to say.
THE ENLISTMENT ACT, (CHAPTER 93) ENLISTMENT NOTICE (FULL-TIME/OPERATIONALLY READY NATIONAL SERVICE)
You are hearby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (Cap 93), to report for enlistment on 20 JAN 2006 (FRI) AT 12.45 PM to BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL 2 (BMTC SCH 2)
YOU ARE REQUIRED TO UNDERGO A 7 WEEKS MODIFIED BASIC TRAINING FOR FULL-TIME NATIONAL SERVICE.
Not fair not fair not fair not fair!!!
eeks i dun get to celebrate my 19th birthday outside. its a blasting 8 days before my birthday larh.
oh wells. no working end of this year, considering i only have less than a month's break after all my stuff are over and enlistment.
but. 7 weeks modified BMT means lalalala i'll be out very soon. i'll finish NS before 2007 ends, prob in october or something. they probably have too many clerks. haha.
hmm i'll get my A's results during my BMT! no fun. la. blah.
School's over. yesterday. was the last day, though we hardly feel it.
probably because of some paper wif subject code 9392/03.
for those who ask why do i countdown to the end of A's and not the start, its because when do i start? and as of now, A's has started, with the submission of 9392/03 this coming week. yar its completed, with one more harmony test on monday to go. there. one paper out of how many down.
so. why not just see where the other papers are.
25 oct: 9392/02 and 9392/42 8 Nov 1400h: 9233/01 10 Nov 0800h: 9233/02 11/Nov 0800: 8005/01 & 1000h: 8005/02 14 Nov 1400h: 9246/01 & 1530h: 9246/02 16 Nov 0800h: 9246/03 18 Nov 0800h: 9234/01 21 Nov 1400h: 9234/02 22 Nov 0800h: 9233/00 & 9392/01 at the same time. but i'll be taking 9233 first.
so.
looks quite a straightforward time table, handlable. if there's such a word.
with that, i won't be taking any mroe exams for at least 2 years. written papers, that is. probably going on for FRSM muahahahaha.
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farewell assembly next friday. how fake. we all say goodbye during the assembly, then the next day we come back for revision lectures again. or for mep students that afternoon itself. haha. oh wells.
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and with farewell assembly, all the giving out of certificates of appreciation and merits. for those who have asked me why im not getting anything, er, ask my teacher. but the thing is, its just a cert. do i really need it? of course, having it will be cool, something to show after i leave RJ, that i have done something. but do i deserve it? i dunno. even if i do, do i care about fighting for it? haha. i'm always more of a background person, backstage, everything hidden. unrecognised, unappreciated, how sad right? but. i don't care. what i have done, i know. hopefully i know myself well enough. and others know or not, it doesnt matter. recognition will be nice, but if not, i can always boast to myself. to boost my ego. of course, im bitter about it, that others with seemingly less contribution are getting it. but do i cry and sulk all day abuot it? no. its just life. get on with it.
for those who are disappointed too, don't be. but i dun think there's anyone else who's actually disappointed that much though. haha. come to reality. this is rj. come on.
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i'm too passive. that's my loss. my 'limiting factor'. its because of my passiveness that i don't gain a lot of things. how? to ask myself, is it that hard to open your mouth instead of waiting? the thing is, its not. but. i don't do it. don't ask me why.
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the reality of the 'end of school' is finally setting in. gosh. two years of JC, will it be over just like that? not that i want to go through it again, though orientation again will be nice, and the concerts too. if i were to choose, will i come to RJ again? this was the question in the quality survey thing we did. For those who know me well will know my answer already, and the reasons why. basically, just see if there's anything in RJ that attracts me. the people, the place, the things, the... dunno. bleahx.
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do i ever say no?
people say i'm too kind.
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people also say i'm a bad liar. oh gosh.
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it's time to let go of some things that will never be mine. some things that i have always wished for, probably, if i believe enough, they will come. but not now. not in the near future. i should let go.
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perhaps i will indeed disappear.
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ch
by the way. i went to do boring things again.
You are sad because of the loneliness in your life
1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you. 2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3) I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. 4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5) I'll tell you my first memory of you. 6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you. 8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written!
at 4.40 am this 5 October 2005, I declare my Compo and Harmony Portfolio DONE!!!
by 'done' i mean paged, ordered, and checked. not binded yet. must let teahcers see first...
but. yay.
and the recordings are reedited and sounds okay now. whew.
haha. i proved 1=2. lalala. so by induction, 0=1, 1=2, 2=3, 3=4, 4=5, 5=6, 6=7, 7=8, 8=9, 9=10. so we don't need to submit harmony exercises (0) and we will have done the max of 10. cos 0=10. yay.
sugar, spice, and everything nice. these were the ingredients chosen to create the perfect little girl. but professor utonium accidentally added an extra ingredient to the concoction: chemical X. *boom* thus the powerpuff girls were born! using their ultrasuper powers, blossom, bubbles, and buttercup, has dedicated their time to fighting crime, and the forces of evil!
lalala. Happy Children's Day! and as lau said, happy vegetarian day and happy world music day too!
cant believe it. i sat through the powerpuff movie!!! haha.
the director is super smart larh. come up wif numerous stories, then work on the background. heh. like how mojo jojo came about and blah. and the mayor's special phone, and the 'saving the world before bedtime' haha oh gosh. im mad. heh. but well its children's day. muz enjoy mah.
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on a different note.
to all people who study music out there. which do u believe in:
1) starting from basics, building up step by step, and having your own interpretation and understanding to everything
2) do grade 8 stuff then slowly build up grades 1 to 7, and during which, you blindly follow what your teacher teaches and do not understand the music at all.
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i want my individuality. i'm a stubborn person. ask my school teachers and they will tell you that. but tell me to conform, and i will rebel.
perhaps, thats what makes me who i am. i proclaim i am an individual, and i do not need to conform. so it takes me a few more years to reach that standard which i'm supposed to play at. fine. so be it. even though im a greedy person who wants results fast, i want it my way. my own work. my own interpretation. i'd rather go and experience spring myself and go fall in love myself than to follow what is supposedly a 'perfect' recording.
sighs. so what if your students are all like that?
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prelims results are almost all back. satisfied to a certain extent, but as always, could have done better. but for now, i'm taking a 3 to 4 weeks of study break. IE a break in studying. yar i'll go for revision lectures (more for socialising i guess heh) and i'll crash single maths lectures just for fun. but apart from that, until 1 week before the A's itself, i'm dedicating my life to the piano. unfortunately so. argh heck the A's larh. that's the last thing on my mind. it costs less than one exam of the piano larh.
I'm Chee Hang. I'm currently serving NS, and I'm also part of the Catholic High School Choir
alumni, the Edward Becheras Vocale.
My favourite colour is blue.
My favourite composer is Beethoven.
My favourite music(s) are powerful.
My favourite food is anything edible and nice.
I like to help people.
I am childish.
I am still a kid, although already 19. Young at heart =o)
