am needing my creative juices right about...

...-now-

Haha.. to squeeze something out of my already retarded brain is going to be challenging... and its not just something. its some-thing-. (okay that doesnt mean anything but i meant it to be something unusual..)

and my horoscope actually told me to 'channel your philosophical inspirations into some creative writing'. hmm what philosophical inspiration?

yay good friday coming soon =))

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was back in school today, and also on msn, see so many J2s putting up their CT scores... eh people what have u been doing in school? haiyoh. but dunno leh, the people with good grades never dare to say/put up their grades, and the not very good ones will always 'boast' that they have 3 Es, or 4 Fs, or wad OBOE or COFFEE or COCO all that crap larh... aiyoh people, bad grades so? are u trying to show off ur bad grades to gain people's acceptance, like getting good grades is a sin? i think i have posted about this last year before, and true, it seems u get more acceptance when u have less than wonderful grades... which i think is a flaw in the environment. wierd right? does this encourage people to do worse?

sometimes i do wonder if i wasnt in a mugger class like mine, how would i have performed? better, only to get sconed at, or worse, to be 'accepted'? or if my grades were worse, would my class have laughed or kicked me aside? or if my grades were better, what would my classmates think?

okay, im not in school anymore. but then out here in army, i see RJ or VJ or those top 5 jc people, when people ask what school they from, they say, then they add 'aiyar i stupid one larh'. it seems like a standard answer. i do not shy away from the fact that i do that sometimes too, only i nv say i stupid one, i say i go rj only for music. which in a way is true. or else who in the right mind would spend 3 hours on the road each day just to go to school haha... if HC had music i wld probably have gone there. oh wells. the stereotyping and all that s--- that comes being above average... it is unsettling sometimes to be like this...

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to my senior who commented on my last blog...

yar i agree wif u. as a musician, yes i agree. but note, as a musician. true, singapore in gearing towards an arts society. and i agree that this is one way u keep ur talents in.. what rings in my mind is also the melvyn tan case, so yarh, why not just keep mdc here so that some people (esp the non combat fit ones) can look forward to army?

but at the back of my mind, im still skeptical. funny, how i really didnt want to be doing combat stuff, yet trying to push away my lifeline ah?

by the way, senior, who are you?

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