Sighs...

I'm so not functioning nowadays. sheez. i remember how two years back, near the prelims period all the way to the O's, i was complaining about how i'm losing steam. is it the same now?

why do i shy away from all those challenges and daunting tasks, only to regret doing so when other people take them on? Then again, why do i take on so many things at wierd times, only to find out that maybe i cant cope at all?

i think its an irony. and im like self contradicting and blah. i do things that others dun usually do, like take 3 exams at the A's period. Its amazing how i can just do that just like -that-, if u understand what i mean. how i wish, i can be like the rest who can just sit down and study becuase the A's is the most important. Its like, hey, i need my A's too. bleahx. Haiya if only...

So then again, people look at me to perform miracles again. Yar like when do i ever disappoint people? I'm someone who constantly lives up to expectations, no matter how unrealistic or how unattainable those expectations are. Indeed, by the definitions of the general public, i have never failed before. Though my definition is much different, but then, its the others i live for, not myself. how wierd right? no. left. i mean, wrong. we live in a society where we are always judged and compared by others, less by ourselves. So even if i deem myself to fail miserably, to others i have been a wonder.

So as much as i want to go on talking about all this, i feel that i need a rest in order to perform my miracles. And who cares if my practical did badly today? I'm still always one nudge above others. So my didnt do well would be a what, 70? yar, gawk, awe, shock, kill me. please. i seriously need a beating to get back into reality. to come back down to earth. eerks. i'm too confused and doing too much thinking.

I cant finish revising. This is super bad. I'm going to cross my fingers and hope for chicken feet papers. And i'm not going to bank on physics at all. It can flunk for all i care. i just want my A in Maths FM and Music. and a respectable grade for Maths S. Physics.. who cares. (although who knows, i might end up with an A for physics. Yar Chee Hang wad.)

am i that scheming. to quote: 'never see you study in school, always ask people go out one, then u go home and mug like hell'.
to quote: ' dun want talk to you. stupid. complain cant do things and then get wad, 4 As? go and die.'

with friends like this, who needs enemies.

ch




And Princess: This is ESP.
Extra-sensory perception, or ESP, is the name given to any ability to acquire information by means other than the five canonical senses (taste, sight, touch, smell, and hearing), or any other sense well known to science (balance, proprioception, etc).
Because the definition of sense is vague, the precise definition of extra-sensory is as well, but the term is generally used in reference to humans, to imply sources of information unknown to modern science.