In the middle of prelims...

... and my mind is wondering all over the place.

For a long time now, i have acquainted with this special someone, or these special someones. It was actually love at first sight, and i probably will never know if this feeling is mutual. My first was shorter, only 1.10 in height, but she was nice. Never knew her beyond the outside. She watched me grow, and helped me achieve what i have today. my second is taller, though i'm still taller. better touch and control. she was someone i enjoyed playing, enjoyed her company.

Yet, i have never been thankful. She was always there, for granted. For years, the way i have treated her: gently, angrily, forcefully, caringly, in anguish, violently... I have never thanked her.

Maybe that's why i will never progress on. I must be thankful, must talk to her. Never had, dunno if i ever will if my mind havent wondered.

I need to name her too, if im going to keep her for quite some time.

Oh...






she's my piano. heh.

Yesterday's Rach 3 was, how should i put it, fulfilling. Met quite a few pple there, incl the VJ PE teahcer. Heh. my YJ frens too. though this senior asked me, 'have u ever heard of this guy [Marc-Andre Hamelin]? I have heard of a lot of russian pianists before and never heard of his name!' wait. is Hamelin Russian? haha.

It was almost frustrating, that he was so big, and from the sides of Circle 2, it almost seemed as though he was bigger than the grand. oh one thing though, i wished out school got that grand. easier to push. hAha. but anyway, Hamelin is just big. it pissed me off that he seemed to play so effortlessly, and yet the sound that came out was nothing simple.

Yet, i felt that the 1st movement was a bit on the lethargic side though. Probably it was how he looked. He looked so calm, so tranquil, not even moving a bit, that it didnt fit in the picture i had of Rach 3. But the 3rd movement was wonderful.

maybe i sat a bit too high, too much to the left. bad eyesight. heh. but his fingers were just a blur, he did those octave jumps with ease. okay, someone once commented and asked me how i managed to play Brahms' rhapsody no. 1 with all those left hand jumps and blah. okay, practise. but to see someone else do it was a whole different thing.

i wonder how rach did it himself. hmm...

oh, and i think the orch simply enjoyed playing rach 3 more than the Glinka and Shos of the first half. even Lim Yau. Maybe because he thought he was hidden by the piano he moved so much more during rach. heh. not that he was dull in the first half. but looking at the conductor definitely is interesting.

oh wells. chem tmr.

eh wait i dun take chem haha.

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