Looking back...

I suppose i have previously used this title. Cant remember what that post was about anyways so heck. but still.

I was reading my blog from two years back. My O's year. I find myself quite immature actually. Haha. Okay, before u think that i can't any worse than what i am right now, i was worse. and actually a crybaby. Haha. oh wells.

I realised how i used to countdown to everything, when i now don't even bother to. There were a series of blogs that went like
"12 days left, 10 papers to go" then "7 days, 7 papers", "3 days to freedom" blah blah blah. oooh those days...

Then there were the blogs that recorded every nitty gritty detail of my life, and gosh so boring. Haha. if i find it boring now woops sorry to all those who have actually read it. (and if u are damn hyper and want to find some boredom go to http://cheekane.blogspot.com haha)

Then there was this from last year:
hm... just returned from MEP UK trip... enriching trip. learnt a lot a lot. and a lot of experiences as well.
And yes, how we all remember the trip. at about this time last year we were finally going to touch down in Changi Airport, saying goodbye to a whole week of ________ (fill in the blank yourself). And how today, me and joanna were relating to alicia how the trip was, certainly brought back a lot of memories, be it good or bad, interesting or boring. Certainly, this week overseas was one of the most enriching one of last year. Yesh. Can never forget it.

And then i look on at how i keep talking about this trip, wishing i could be back there again, and i know in the hearts of the Ex-J1 Meppies we all feel the same.

Hmm.. wondering what would have been, what could have been, what should have been. Am i being nostalgic? certainly. and why shouldnt I? for if i cant look forward, and is reluctant to stay put, the best thing to do is to look back.

And when we all look back, we find how we have always seemed to enjoy the past, and the present is never as good, and we tell ourselves that the future will be better, but will we be sure? sighs.

okay...

argh i hate hospital staff... Its like, how inefficient! can refer me to this room and that, walking around ttsh, for those few hours, it could have well been 2.4 training if i ran and took the stairs. Argh. had i known they wld have taken so long to approve two blood tests (which sucked out 2 1/2 tubes of blood from my vein) and an ultrasound (for my unborn child haha) which eventually had to be rescheduled (probably because of all those pregnant women who had their husbands with them... i was alone haha)... i should have just gone back to the polyclinic, drew blood myself, and i probably would have finished all that already. and all with sleepy eyes... zzzzzzz...

oh yesh thanks a lot ^+^ i know u'd spent a lot of effort on it. i appreciate it. ^+^

-Chee Hang ^+^

(if u're wondering what ^+^ means, its a chicken. something brought back from my sec3/4 days, Haha)