Hopes and dreams...

I guess there has to be a time when the factory finally breaks down, no matter how many failsafes are taken.

I'm sick. Actually, I'm not sick again. But rather, I have not yet recovered since the December fever and now it's coming back. But at least, I get a break from what I have been doing since Monday. And today, I slept a total of 17 hours already hahaha. Oh wells. I need that rest. And I'm glad I'm finally resting, cos the things I'm doing now, I can afford to not do it. Not like school and the many many things which became excuses for me not to take a break. Yes, and I know others might be glad that Chee Hang isn't on the move for once. Haha.

Grieg is super nice. I can't believe that I haven't found a piano equivalent of his C minor Sonata for Violin and Piano (Op.45). Gosh. That piece is so full of emotions, angst, anger, passion, sadness, despair, and at the same time relief, salvation, joy, and love. Not even Beethoven did this before, or at least not in any of his piano pieces. Although Appasionata is also that emotional, no, I still prefer Grieg more. The passionate first movement with that agitated and energetic theme, the serene slow movement followed by a dance-like section, and a last movement that simply sums up everything. Wonderful.

I'm beginning to see things clearly now that I am taking a break. And finally, I see the reason why others can play Dota when I stay up til 2 am or later to rush tutorials. Here are a few things:

1) Pure laziness. Bleahx.
2) Discipline to do things that are not that important.
3) Just wanting to do more.
4) Helpfulness, which is not helping myself.
5) Prioritising the wrong things.
6) Spending too much time on music.
7) Not believing in computer games.
8) Having too many commitments out of school.

Ah... the list continues, but I'm too lazy to type it out.

But something about being out of action is that I can't wait to get back into action. Which should NOT be the case. Haha. I just managed to cancel a few things out of my organizer. I can cancel more, but decide to leave them there. Hoping that I can get back to it.

Thankfully, others are just so understanding, and no one shouted at me for backing out. I promise, if I can, and my health keeps up to it, I'll come back okay?

Whew.

Rest well... Haha.

There's so many things I would like to say, and so many people whom I'd like to meet, but not now. Not enough time nowadays.

-cheehang