wonderful... just wonderful...

Okay, here's how's this genius had planned this week:

From tuesday to thursday, a whopping 2 concerts and 2 exams. How does that sound to you?

I must be damn dumb.

Okay, maybe not i planned one but wells. I had to say yes. bleahx.

LTCL accompaniment tomorrow. I am NOT confident yet. Hope to get my confidence level up. Its a real trial, a real big test. For reasons beyond comprehension, for reasons from the supernatural... and that day is finally here, my worries and stress levels building up fapidly since one month back, will it all be over by 1pm tomorrow, or will i feel damn bad? i want to be able to finally let go of the breath i've been holding, and just collaspe in a corner when its all over. but will i be collapsing due to relief, or due to disappointment?

Be careful when u meet me tomorrow. I may snap. bleahx. im too nice to do that.

oh wells. tomorrow tmr tmr tmr tmr... im so scared. This is the exam that i'm worst prepared for, i have to admit. even worse than my grade 7 in sec 1, which i took just after my hand recovered from that stupid fracture. And im not prepared at all, and this is my first time taking a trinity exam, and i wonder if it was the right choice. I was asking the person i/c the other day, whether got people take accompaniment exams. considering how many people asked me 'you mean such an exam existed?' and even me myself not knowing it existed, i was not surprised when she said not many took the exam. bleahx.

im not feeling too good right now. my nose hasnt stopped running since the GP paper. which was horrendous by the way. i looked at paper 1 and blanked out for 5 minutes. then i decided to write the one on 'is sitting on the fence ever the best position to be' and i was so cheeky haha. oh well that felt like the safest topic, yet the hardest. halfway through i thought i should have written the one on 'is the modern society more obsessed with beauty' cos i did cosmetic surgery for PW last year. then the one about arts: 'the function of art is to instruct, not to please' i could have written that too. but it might have been one sided i think cos im pretty biased -against- art. yes against. haha one wonders why im going into music. maybe because music pple got short lives.

okay. im damn scared right now. need practise, but no chance to do that. hope tmr will be fine. argh. help. gasp. im worrying too much. because i cant put my faith into this exam. maybe it is fated that all this will happen.

things like these always happen to me. im always one of the first few to know, and then have to keep it secret. i dunno, its bursting inside me. and some things i would rather not know and live peacefully in bliss. ignorance is bliss. bleahx.

okay going to rest.

wish me luck.

and oh yes chamber pple all the best for tmr's concert too!

-ch