Rach...

I heard Rach 3 today. again. in full. and hearing martha agareich... however her name is spelled... but after hearing it.. thoughts just jumped into my head...

for one... i have been hearing amatuers learning to play it all around school... and then i suddenly realise... they learn to show off, not to understnad the piece! it sounds so bangy and just so many notes. hey im not saying this cos they can play it and i gave up learning it... its mroe than that... oh wells rach 3 is a good showpiece. of course. duh. but then... theres so much emotional meaning attached to it actually...

dun play it to show off.

u dun need to learn rach 3 to be good. of course it would be great if u can play it, but no one blames u if u cant.

if u are there technically, work on the emotional aspect of yourself. a musician can feel. its not just notes.

sheez. i feel sad.

dunno why. just after my CTs... maybe its the expectation of bad results.
maybe its something that has been bothering me for long.
maybe its the bottling up of thoughts.

the heart is not a container to contain things. i just realised. it will just spill. and then the whole you is affected.

i was commented on my playing... to quote: 'sounds so unlike chee hang! the chee hang i know is livelier... and not so fierce. a pleasant cheeky guy. not a bothered fierce guy who wants to go mad and kill pple. what's bothering you? i can hear it in your playing'

and i thought its just me.

oh wells.

-ch