*bish*

Ok Prac was bad. argh. my headache didnt do much good. guess i havent fully recovered yet... *bish* my Brahms was SO messy, barely one page into the music and i already got a glaring wrong chord. yucks. needless to say, as i always do, i freak out. yar. havent mastered the art of ignoring all my mistakes in front. yar so ended up, my rhapsody wasnt rhapsodic at all. it was rather messy. eeks.

prokofieff wasnt any better. first, i started when i thought i was ready, but the moment my fourth finger of my right hand went down, i knew i wasnt. *cry* the whole things was just a mess. no lines, no correct notes, no correct chords, no nothing. just plain static music made up of wrong notes. if u qualify that as music at all....

stupid me shouldnt have practised so hard last night. over practice... and shouldnt have warmed up so much this morning. my finger tips actually hurt lar... and i found out i developed sweaty palms. and sitting there in that piano chair i actually sweated like so much when it was supposed to be freezing cold. bleahx. i can just die.

next time i'll memorise my scores again.

accompaniment wasnt that much better. more steady i suppose, as i am supposed to be. yar a good pillar of support, but that was all. eeks. why am i talking about accompaniment?

erhu was equally bad. scratchy, out of tune, nervousness, sweaty finger tips that slided all over the place due to gravity...

*cry*

wad to do. only have myself to blame.

argh i should be studying actually. CTs are next week. and i havent started. i dun realli want to...

*cry*

*cry cry cry*

obviously...
so obvious...
exclusive?
why did you...
yours...
stone...
rock...
bored...
shop...
soft toys...
accessories...

cry cry cry

jackson