on childish and maturity

child·ish ( P ) Pronunciation Key (chldsh)adj.
-Of, relating to, or suitable for a child or childhood
-Marked by or indicating a lack of maturity; puerile
-Not complicated; simple.
-Affected mentally by old age; senile.

ma·ture ( P ) Pronunciation Key (m-tyr, -tr, -chr)adj. ma·tur·er, ma·tur·est
-Having reached full natural growth or development
-Having reached a desired or final condition; ripe
-Of, relating to, or characteristic of full development, either mental or physical

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what's wif me and childish/maturity?
I'm growing up, growing older. every year in January, im especially jumpy at times, cus im a january kid! which means im older than 11/12 of the people born in 1987. hmm... but does that make me mature for my age?
for a while it did. i used to think i was very mature and that i had the ability to see things from the way adults did, and thus i liked to mix wif adults rather than people of the same age group whom i considered childish. and i mixed more wif seniors than juniors too!
then one day, i became THE senior. meaning no more seniors around me. i became aware that i was drifting apart from others, and then i started mixing wif juniors more. i believed in the end i ended up abit more childish...
nowadays... i get comments that im very childish, which i think is true. i may be old, but i m childish, young at heart. but that doesnt mean i have lost my mature view on things. in fact, i think im fortunate enough. i can be childish and mature, depending on where/when/who i am(with). hmm... oh wells...

wads all this talk about chidishness and maturity suddenly? haha... if you're thinking this is a major big hint that my birthday is coming, guess wad, you're right.

haha just kidding. actually no. its just that well a few people have suddenly decided to shout at me to grow up. oh wells isnt that touching... and yes, i told them, i know im almost 18. sweet 18, the first step into adulthood. whY? well 18 is the year u can drive, drink, smoke, bet, watch M18 shows, etc etc legally. not that im going to try all of them at once. or if i try them at all. haha. but yes, 18 is a nice time to be, if not for A levels and NS looming ahead of me. oh wells guys get it hard.

if you havent noticed, 18 is such a wonderful number. it has a horizontal symmetry line! and its a multiple of 2,3,6,9! and 6 and 9 are opposites of each other, which makes 18 quite a complete number. hmm...wad kind of crap is that. haha. i just came up wif that.

oh wells. wif age and privileges come responsibilities. some of my juniors probably have heard this from me before you took on a leadership role! responsibilities. discipline. oh wells.

i muz learn to trust others more. sometimes i take on lots of things becus i dun trust others to do it well. and its nice to be trusted wif a lot of things. mm. oh ewlls. things i have to learn in my first year of adulthood. haha.

i msut start making a list of things to change about me. every year during my b'dae, i always coop myself up in my room and make a super long list of thigns i must accomplish, and things about myself i have to change, before i tear up that list and say wait for 18. HHAHA! now no more excuses!!!

so here goes:
1. grow up.
2. trust others more.
3. stop lazing.
4. be more proactive.
5. be more healthy.
6. be less helpful. haha jk. be even MORE helpful to others.
7...

oh wells why not u tell me?

haha how long more, 12 days? im going to make a list of my top priorities by then. i didnt say how many cus i know i'll never go around to making a long list...

hmm...
-Chee Hang